The Pilot 2 · Track 10 of 11
This Letter
90 BPM3:39CleanWritten by Lexxi Meshan
Late night, journaling, writing the message you are never going to send. The longest record on the album and the one that most rewards sitting still for it. It reads as a breakup letter to a person who took everything and gave nothing back, and it is genuinely devastating on those terms, and then the last line of the second verse turns the whole song over: "your name is HIP-HOP and you got me feeling this way." Everything before it reframes at once. The mood is composed hurt rather than heat. For the listener who has given years to something that did not love them back, whether that is a person, a job or an art form. A songwriter's record, and the one to put in front of anyone who needs proof of craft.
Lyrics
[ HOOK ]
I'm writing you this letter that
Tells the one and only fact
I don't want it you can have it back
Naw I don't want it you can have it back
I'm writing you this letter that
Tells the one and only fact
I don't want it you can have it back
Naw I don't want it you can have it back
[ VERSE 1 ]
Im sick and tired of people only out to judge me
You said you'd always love me
And put no one above me
You said you'd be there to protect me but you really wasn't
The hurt is really cutting
You wasn't good for nothing
I would support you and defend you when the times right
Ya number one fan when you was in the lime light
But now it shines bright
Brighter than the stars
You never cared for me, I see who you really are
The fame is all good until you see the fools gold
How you treated me will come back on you ten fold
My people tried to tell me now I wish I would've listened
I never saw this ending coming shoulda had a vision
But in my vision it was all you
It was us against the world wasn't nothing we couldn't fall through
But then you withdrew
Like a bad addict
And you left me addicted
And now I'm back at it
Not back on you, but I'm back on
I am not the type of girl that would be stuck singing the same song
This is a new chapter
A new begin
In my book, your character doesn't see the end
[ HOOK ]
I'm writing you this letter that
Tells the one and only fact
I don't want it you can have it back
Naw I don't want it you can have it back
I'm writing you this letter that
Tells the one and only fact
I don't want it you can have it back
Naw I don't want it you can have it back
[ VERSE 2 ]
Not the type to get emotional I like to hide it
Internalize my feelings then I unleash
them in private
But understand, what you did to me it wasn't kosher
My mind is driving me crazy i think I need a chauffeur
I'm just needing some closure, composure, its over
You was the one that told me when I need it I could hold ya
Confide and consult ya
You was my only solider
You always kept me in line, u taught me bout my culture
When the dark came to light, did I neglect you?
The shining armor gone and nothing to protect you
You got me feeling bitter, am I stuck in my ways?
You had me running in circles like I'm stuck in a maze
Don't know what to do I'm constantly stuck in a daze
I did the work but you was constantly getting the praise
I pray to God that how I'm feeling is only a phase
Your name is HIP-HOP and you got me feeling this way!
[BRIDGE]
I'm writing you this letter that
Tells the one and only fact
I don't want it you can have it back
Naw I don't want it you can have it back
I'm writing you this letter that
Tells the one and only fact
I don't want it you can have it back
Naw I don't want it you can have it back
[ HOOK ]
I'm writing you this letter that
Tells the one and only fact
I don't want it you can have it back
Naw I don't want it you can have it back
I'm writing you this letter that
Tells the one and only fact
I don't want it you can have it back
Naw I don't want it you can have it back
Lyrics as published on Shazam. Written by Lexxi Meshan. © Breonne Publishing Company.
The Pilot 2 · Out Now
Eleven tracks, ten years to the day after the debut. Written, owned and published by Lexxi Meshan.